Who Are We?

We are the teenagers with the emptiest smiles and the loudest silence. We are the generation that you decided to never give much thought and effort to understand. We are the in-betweens of the old generation and the new. The first to experience to be scrutinized by the judging eyes of society. 

 

We are the misfits of today's society. We're the ones expected to know what will become of us in the future, but never given the chance to spread our wings and experiment with the joys of life. We are the rebels with an unknown cause. We are the doves with shackles and chains on our ankles.

 

We are given few choices, too many hopes. Not a lot of chances to make on our own decisions and help us grow; too many hopes only to be crushed by deceptive fantasies and imagination gone wild.

We have come to believe that life could only be as good as a well-written book, which will eventually come to an end. We are the princes, princesses, wizards, and warriors of a story that has yet to be published for the whole world to discover.

 

We are teenagers who are constantly misunderstood. We are the generation that has yet to unravel.

 

 

Two Personalities in One Body

Part of her believes that she’s made to love and be loved. She is full of scars in her soul that could only be mended by someone who cared enough to warm her frozen heart on their hands in these cold days. She wakes up with messy hair. She just wears jeans and a t-shirt. She burps too loud and she eats a lot. She has a crazy mood, like, one second she wants to be with you but in the next few seconds, she doesn’t want to see you anymore. Yet despite all these, she believes that someone is meant for her and that someone would accept every flaw that she’s been trying to hide in the world.

 

But the other part of her is sure that she isn’t meant to be in a relationship. She is full of insecurities that she feels less confident with her body. People tell her that she looks great and she smiles upon hearing the compliment, but at night when she’s lying alone on her bed thinking about that one guy who never even cared made her realize how ugly she is. She’s pretentious that she makes other people believe that she’s okay even if something is slowly killing her inside. She likes to be alone yet she doesn’t feel lonely at all. She has good books and hot tea mugs that she uses to cover the absence of someone who is not there to hold her heart. She even fools loneliness that she thought she’s fine just by herself. She doesn’t know how to deal with someone on an emotional level and like this, she knows no one can hurt her.

 

Broken and fixed. Warm and cold. Complex and divided in two completely opposite personalities who always fight to deal with each other. 

I'm Lost

I'm lost. Lost in my own world. My own magical world. A world without prejudices, hate, discrimination, cruelty and all toxic things that the people, in reality, have imposed on each other. The reason why I got lost like that is that I couldn't live in my cruel reality. A reality in which real love, no matter if it's the mother-daughter type of love, boyfriend-girlfriend, boyfriend-boyfriend etc., is hard to find. A reality in which people are so selfish all the time, so cruel, so disrespectful, full of hate that I couldn't take it anymore. 

 

I've been lost for so long that I'm afraid I'll soak completely in that world, which no matter how beautiful it's not real and before I get lost forever I want to get out of there and face reality. Face it and try to change it, turn it into the magical perfect reality that I've been lost in. The world is wrong but it's only because of the people that live in it. If people's mindset changes, the world wouldn't be a scary place to live in but contrary it would be that wonderful world that most of us have created in our minds. 

 

The world is full of racists, rapists, pedophiles, psychopaths, homophobes, toxic people. Let's not allow to get lost completely so these people don't rule with our world and pass on their wrong thoughts. Because the world is as it is "thanks" to parents and teachers that teach their kids wrong which later teach their kids the same and so on, non-logical, stupid thoughts are transmitted and that way the world is becoming more and more hateful and damaged. 

 

But there are open-minded, woke people and I believe you can be one of them and I believe that everyone can be with the right people by their side. I believe in this world so I suggest believing, praying and hoping together so that we can also change the world for the better, together. But along with praying and hoping we must take actions as well. We need to speak up and try our best to help these people to get out of their toxic minds and be open minded instead, to change their way of thinking. However not all people can be changed, and the ones that can't, the ones that have done bad things oh well we need to put them to justice because right now fairness is hard to find. There are rapists, pedophiles, killers that get away with their crimes just because they are rich, white or "have people inside". Like what, doesn't it make you mad, doesn't it make you scream and fight for these people. That's why I don't wanna live in any fake magic perfect world but I wanna be strong, brave and fearless and speak up for what I believe in and create a real magic perfect world.